Friday Night Insights
People often say to me "I don't know how you manage with four children.", and the cold hard truth of it is that I am often hanging on by a thread. I have so much in my head, that I am not ready to share with even my family. But those concerns, those thoughts - they are there. The reality of my life is that it's hard. Not the same as someone else's hard, not worse or better- but hard for me. I have four children, each of whom would be a challenge on their own. Adding them together means that one sets another off, and that sets ME off, and then we're all in a full-blown emotional crisis. I've been getting help for my own mental health, and the process has been very up and down. I think though, that I finally understand the concept of not being able to care for others without caring for myself. I still find it incredibly hard to remember to eat, drink (non-coffee), and shower. I go through the motions of daily existence, completely focused on the kids, on m